Lifting Veils

In my twenties, I lived under a veil of neediness that came from feeling unworthy. 

I could never be certain that I was loved, and so I worked very hard to be 

indispensable to others, hoping to make myself needed. Then, I thought, those I 

cared about would have to love me. It was almost dying of cancer in my thirties 

that ripped the veil of neediness from me. 

Breathing in the hospital at night after surgery, I saw the world without veils. I 

suddenly heard the others breathing around me. For the first time, my simple 

breathing was enough. I didn’t have to do anything to be loved. Suddenly, being 

human was being a piece of nature. I doubt if a fish or bird or fox feels unworthy.  

I was alive in a quiet way I’d never been aware of. 

Since then, I’ve learned that life covers us with its veils, and living lifts the veils. 

And we must remain devoted to the lifting of veils. The great Hindu poet 

Rabindranath Tagore points to how: “It is part of a poet’s religion to [engage] a 

solemn faith in [their] own function, to realize that [they are] specially called to 

collaborate with [their] Creator in adding to the joy of existence.” 

Again, I think this applies to more than poets, for this is everyone’s fate. We all 

collaborate with the Universe “in adding to the joy of existence.” This is our work 

in being here. And when I’m stuck behind yet another veil, when I’m feeling bad 

about myself for getting enmeshed one more time, I recall that unencumbered 

breath in the hospital that was veil free, and declare myself to the Universe, the 

way a hawk might screech as it leaves a tangle of branches. The truth is that 

while I will always be a poet, the way a fish will always be a fish, it has always 

been so I can know the depth that carries me. 

At times, the hardest work before us is to part our veil so we can know the deep. 

And writing is a way to pull a thread and unravel our veil over time. 

A Question to Walk With: Describe a veil you are currently struggling to lift and what your next step might be. 

This excerpt is from my book, Drinking from the River of Light. 

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